Echoes - Page 7

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Revalations Of A Full Night

So long I have been tired.
I have found that with out sleep
I am most happy.

So long I have been aching.
I have found that with out hope
I am most angry.

So long I have been asking.
I have found that when I am alone
I am most wise.

So long I have been sad.
I have found that when I have peace in my sorroundings
I am must loving.

So long I have been tired.
I have found that when I do not sleep
I am less troubled.

So long I have been thinking.
I have found that when I am innocent
I am most greatful.

So long I have been dreaming.
I have found that when I am less sleepy
I am most honest.

So long I have not been trying.
I have found that when wanting
I am most efficient.

So long I have mis-informed.
I have found when I am more alone
I am most at home.

So long I have been tired.
I have found that when you are furthest
I am most settled.

So long.
It has been so long.

And I never want it to end.

The Integrity Of Insecureity

Hello.
Don't act like you can take it.
You're filtering the hatred.
Again.
Your face is too same and
Don't act like you're courageous.
At all.
Don't act like you can take.
You know that you can taste it.
Is it gone now?
Don't act like you can fake it.
Don't act like you're courageous.
You know you needed me and
Don't act like you can take.
Alone.
Don't fall inside your pain and
Don't fall on me for safety.
Don't act like you're courageous.

Hello there.
Call on me if you need it.
I doubt that you beleive it.
Don't act like you're courageous.
I see it in your face.
Don't tell me that I'm crazy.
Don't act like you can take it.
Don't act like you're courageous.

The Japenese Looking Mexican

Cold and empty
That is the last thing
you will see of me.

You're so damaged
And yeah you've had
You're so damaged
Bitch please.

You're so jealous
Jealous of my life.
Youre so feline.
Looks like you might die.

And you're so pathetic.
And yeah I meant it.
You can't stand it.
I won't stand here anymore.

You're so-called freindship
Is just resentment.
Look at me one more time like that
And I will snap.

Don't lie now!
Don't lie now!
Don't tell me anything because I don't want to hear!
You anymore.

You're freindship
Means nothing to me.

I'm an ocean in your bedroom
Make you feel warm
Make you want to re-assume
Now we know it all for sure

I'm a dance hall dirty breakbeat
Make the snow fall
Up from underneath your feet
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

I'm a meth lab first rehab
Take it all off
And step inside the running cab
There's a love that knows the way

I'm the rainbow in your jail cell
All the memories of
Everything you've ever smelled
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

Sideways falling
More will be revealed my friend
Don't forget me
I can't hide it
Come again make me excited

I'm an inbred and a pothead
Two legs that you spread
Inside the tool shed
Now we know it all for sure

I could show you
To the free field
Overcome and more
Will always be revealed
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

Sideways falling
More will be revealed my friend
Don't forget me
I can't hide it
Come again get me excited

I'm the bloodstain
On your shirt sleeve
Coming down and more are coming to believe
Now we know it all for sure

Make the hair stand
Up on your arm
Teach you how to dance
Inside the funny farm
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

All will be revealed my freind.

Red Hot Chili Peppers- Don't Forget Me

The Calm Before The Storm

The sun cracks out of the clouds and I am smiling
Brightly enough to know everything for that instant.
My face is warmed and I am overwhelmed.
I can smell the settling in.

Subliminal minds have thought of this before.
I'm ok with being weak.
I'm not. But maybe sometime soon

Dew is in the air augmented with tears.
I'm happy for you, love.
I just can't stand it.

I'm not alright as long as you are numb.
As long as I can feel.
Can you feel me?
I could taste you all along.

Is this where I'm finally letting go?
Don't get your hopes up.

Is this where you wanted me to go?
Could you feel me miles away?

Can you listen? Can't you fucking hold me?
You can't look at me at all.
At least not while faking.

Is this where you wanted me to go?

Could you feel me miles away? ( five times )

The sun goes down and I am overwhelmed.
I can smell the settling in.

"The Japanese Looking Mexican" isn't very nice wraith... Bad you!
Just so you'll know, I did read your others, great work, deep and still manage to sound good, good job.

- Xaej

Mistakes

I have been so far away.
I have hurt those who beileved
I was never out of reach
This regret has reached its peak.

As I sit inside myself,
In this shell I call my cell,
I will sit and think of you.
Is this just my romantic view?

Maybe we will meet again,
Motivated to forgive.
One day we will finally see,
Desease is not nececity.

I will swallow if I can.
I doubt I'm strong enough to stand
On my own and with out help,
But I'm not asking you to dwell.

I am speaking out of heart.
Into yours and everyones.
I am thinking of how to die,
If I should let go or let it fly.

Soon enough this will end.
Some time soon we will begin
To be shaped into ourselves.
You'll remember all you felt.

Just as long as you are real
I am longin for you to hear.
Just as long as I am here
I am longing you to feel.

Attention Deffisit Disorder

Integration
Of a last resort
And the only thing that seemed
At the time
Like a solid idea
Has left me to beleive
That change is always
For the better.

The only problem is
My pants are no longer
Around my waist

Honestsong
I wish to you vengance my dear one, my dear one.
And memories for you to soar with.
I wish to pleasure my child my child.
I pray you don't grow up too fast.
Understand pain my dear one, my dear one.
And hunger and fear and sorrow
Understand war my child, my child.
Remember your hope for tomorrow.

An emulation of another poem.

Hawksong
I wish to you sunshine, my dear one
And treetops for you to soar past.
I wish to you innocence, my child
I pray you don't grow up too fast.
Never know pain, my dear one
Nor hunger nor sorrow nor fear
Never know war my child, my child,
Remember your hope for tomorrow.

Hayley, I Hate You.

Calling out the last man, I'm gonna make him pay.
Are you trying not hear me? I'm gonna make you pay.
Im calling to my freinds, I'm gonna make them pay.
For what they did, for what they did to me.

There's a sting in my bones and I am not ok.
I will battle with the filth, sweety I'm gonna make him pay.
They can take me to my cell, I don't give a damn.
Are you trying not to hear me, I'm gonna make them pay.

It isn't fair to test me, I'm gonna show you hate.
You think its funny when I hurt? Well I'm gonna show you pain.
Do I understand you right? Is everything ok?
Well am I making you think? I'm gonna give you screams.

Is it better off? Thank you. I'm gonna give you hate.
You held the only last, and I'm gonna make you pay.
Calling out man, I'm gonna make him scream.
I'll turn into the filth, sweety I'm gonna make him pay.

Swallow

This is the last apology I'll ever say at all.
I'm sorry you never believed me. At least not in honest eyes.
And I'm holding on to empathy. Well why should I feel at all?
I'll tell you, soon you'll finally see. I live a better life.

Is this caution flag so full of green? Well you must be color blind.
And in the middle of explaining everything that I felt, I will notice that you're thinking that I'm fucked in the head.
And I will wonder, you will try to be something you're not. I admit my expectations were a little bit shot.
But if you're wondering the purpose of explaining myself, I gotta tell ya baby, this is me saying "Go to hell."

By the way your last apology, well it felt just a little weak.
And you were the hope inside my head. Thanks darling I need a fight.
You're letting go, but I am free. How's the weight of fearing me?
Well maybe soon I'll finally see, girl, you live a better life.

Are my eyes so full of green? Well you must be color blind.
And in the middle of explaining everything that I felt, I'll remember that I hurt you and forgive what you dealt.
And you will wonder, I will try to be something I'm not. Gotta admit your expectations were a little bit much.
But if you're wondering the purpose of explaining myself, I gotta tell ya baby, this is me saying "Oh well."

The importance of accpeting truth and then forgiving love.

This is the last apology I'll ever say at all.
This is the only way to be, at least if you're serious.
This is the way that I will feel, at least for awhile now.
This is the "pinch" and man it stings. Hey, can you feel the love?

Hello. My Name Is Josh, And I Am A Cutter. (Hello Josh. Welcome)

This world left me a long time ago.
I've lost myself, again.
This world left me, a long long time ago.
If you are the only one living, does that make you dead?

God, if you're real, I hate you.
Your world left me along with virtue and innocence.
God, if you're real, want to like the tears off your cheek.
You must be blaming us. Sorry doll, but we ain't perfect.

And the one sure way to feel better
Is only fucking thing, I can't swallow.

The trials and tribulations of "left behind"
And "I can't take it"
Are just two of the things that make me bleed.

Caution and damage.
Either you are hurting, or you get hurt.
Acceptance and anger.
Realizing you were never right.

Patience is a virtue,
But whats in side of me is a virus.

And spreading its spreading through my head.
Oh god, please help me with this.
And its spreading once again.
Taking what it will.
Hurting me again.
Damaging my will.

And I am running out of faith.
Again.

Lick the tears off of my face.
She doesn't have the right,
Nobody has the right to heal me.
Except you.

God, if you are real, I fucking hate you.

There's a swelling in brain.
There's an itch and I can't take it.
I"m tired and want to rest.
I am not the enemy, I am not the enemy.

Decades will roll on.
And I will be alone.

Sores on my skin.
You are the best freind I have ever had.

You put these sores on my skin.
You put these sores on my skin.
You are the best freind I ever had.

Won't you cut me down (Please dont run away)
Won't take it out of me (Dont run away)
Please, cut this out of me, cut this out of me,
I can't breath.

And I will bleed proud.
Sweetie are you reading?
I will bleed proud.
And I will bleed proud.

Living boys are red, but you don't have a color at all.

And I will bleed proud.
I am tired.
And I will bleed proud.

Does nothing matter?
Am I not sacred enough for you?

And I will bleed proud.

This will not win.

And I will bleed proud.


I have recently been informed
That everyone around is a fake.
No one is honest any more.

A few hours ago I learned
That I am actually right
And that everyone around me is a liar.

I have recently undergone
A surgical procedure to rid of
This infestation called a brain.

And I am hopeful that one day
I will see you
And you will notice me.
And we will finally be apart.

And I am hopeful that one day
We will meet again.

Is this how its supposed to be?
Is this how I'm supposed to feel?
I gotta tell ya sweetie, this is new shit to me.

This is new shit to me.
And I still can't fucking breath.

No longer will I bleed.


The sensation is rising.
The obssesion is sinking.
And I cannot beleive it.
I'm dying inside.

The message is clear now.
This is diliberate.
Finally I'm dirty enough
to clean up my act and be happy for once.

Goodbye to the eliquint fix.
The boy you'd love to know.
Hello to the idiot kid.
He's just like everyone.

And I'm ready for nothing.
Take it away from me.
Put it right in my face
Nothing will ever reddem.
(You knew this was coming)
I am mistaken,
Are you still angry?
I thought you let go,
But clearly you're clinging

There is no pain and you knew this was coming to me.

Cellar door could never match slide.
Cellar door could never match slide.

And I am hopeless, but thats ok.
The left side will control me.
My heartbreak will sustain me.
I will remember you.
(You knew this was coming)
I will remember you.
(You knew this was coming)
I will remember you!


It's been a full night.
The morning is empty of clouds.
And I hope you're smiling brightly.
This is point of being me.


This the fight.
The spiritual war of ages.
This is the fight.
My faith is almost contagious

This is the fight bleed proud.

Bleed proud...

I bleed proud.

Let's get fucked up and die.
I'm speaking figuratively, of course.
Like the last time that I committed suicide,
Social suicide.
Yeah so I'm already dead, on the inside,
But I can still pretend.
With my memories and photographs,
I've learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense, yeah.
Let me in,
Let me in to the club.
Cause I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong.
And if memory serves.
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.



Let's get fucked up and die.
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie.
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect and I have learned to accept:
All my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral yet deeply inept.

I want to thank you for being a part of my Forget-Me-Nots and Marigolds,
And all the things that don't get old.
Is it legal to do this?
I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself.
Through other peoples' descriptions of life.
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless.

(In this department)

Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling,
We'll try not to smile.
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the night,
That's no shock and surprise.
I believe that I can overcome this and beat everything in the end.
But I choose to abuse for the time being.
Maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.

Sister Soldier you've been such a positive influence on my mental frame.
If I could ever repay you I would but I'm hard up for cash,
And my memory lacks initiative.
Goddamn the liquor store's closed.
We're so close to scoring.
It hurts, it destroys, 'till it kills.
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.

(In this department)

Motion City Soundtrack- Let's Get Fucked Up And Die


This goes out to everyone, and I would highly appreciate it if you all listened to it.

I once thought to ask why and sealed it with authority
And not to ask why not
Yet creativity is master to ordernance

So when the mind caves in on itself
And becomes bad
Just ask why not
And let it open
And then


It becomes useful