Echoes - Page 6

You Knew This Was Coming

i will stop saying please
and start with the needing
i'll face all the facts
and ignore that i'm screaming
forget what is wrong
pretend that i'm good
admit i am twisted
and leav it at that

i'll quit with the qeustions
accept what is given
i'll think that it's normal
and beleive in the message
give up on the torture
because its not worth it
my spirit is broken
and still i'll ignore it

put on a face
and swallow disgrace
scream in my pillow
and bite the embrace
losing the way is all that i need
pavement is easy
forget that i'm weak

i'll leave all the glory
the hero is dead
the job is completed
and time will assist
not with my anger or pain or remorse
it will numb me
i'll let it
and laugh with the worst

i'll be the hayley
she's right and i'm wrong
you'll see then you'll beg me
but i'll be too far gone
just imagine the blankness
i'll smile impared
this face is the same shit
you love to me clear

if you care then i dont
fuck you, you deserve it
im still not quite there yet
excuse me i'm nervous
i'll fight it but dont worry
your cold is enraging
so i need to explode
yeah im the extremist
too bad you dont know
that giving up is easy
and that is extreme
suicide is admiting
that fighting is obscene

so im doing this gladly
with a smile on my face
disgrace is a word
i wont know in twelve days

i wont think at all
pretend its too much
i'll stall my time
and i'll be happy for once

you think thats its pride
i know that its not
the thing is i will lose
if i do this or not
because with out im proud
and with it im drowned
but giving up is ok
because after its done
it wont matter

i could end this
now is my choice
will i pick the right way
or relinqish my voice
every line is a choice
each as hard as the other
your judgment is clear
and you know im aware of it

so yes i am tainted
and you are the mistress
if i say it here im honest
if i dont i have still a chance
if i plead you wont listen
if i give up you wont listen
if i try im ignored
if i bow im no different

so now im confused
with something to think on
this isnt ending sometime soon
so lend me an ear, so we can both think on it.

Giant

pouring out onto the pavement
i am no longer eager
but the batting of my hair is still adorable

you can't stop it
well i knew it all along

passivism has never seemed so dull
then again
neither has justification

The glove compartment is inaccurately named
And everybody knows it.
So i'm proposing a swift orderly change.

Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
And all i find are souvenirs from better times
Before the gleam of your taillights fading east
To find yourself a better life.

I was searching for some legal document
As the rain beat down on the hood
When i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget
And that's how this idea was drilled into my head

Cause it's too important
To stay the way it's been

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night (up all night)
When i'm lying awake at night.

Death Cab For Cutie- Title and Registration

The Little Fish That Takes The Sharks Left Overs.

simple light and clean.
breaking perfectly insync.
testing all we need,
quickly taking everything.
lost inside of me,
i enjoy it every second.
it can't hide from me,
run in circles if you please.

run in cirlces around me.
but im moving forward,
thus so will you.

when it fights with me,
when i tell it to go home.
when i take my break,
when i call it on the phone.
like a lighting storm,
like a little bit of love.
while its inside of me,
run in circles if you please.

run in circles around my mood of empathy.
and live a life that it hates,
live your life the way it wants.
and walk the path that you will,
'cause im fine with everything.
run in circles of me
because im still moving
thus so are you.

i wrote this recently when i was confused

Hi

i am searching for inspiration
to help guide me through this confusion
dissalusion and perpetual movement

i am hoping for your salvation
to stop the hand that inspires hatred
breaking and hurting, and on purpose touturing.

i am intelligent and understand you
your motives, your qeustions, the answers youhide.
your lies, your insecureity, the anger that burns inside.

i am righteous and damn near always right.
i've got the mind of a genius and the heart of jesus christ
i'm forgiving and intense. did you feel it when you cried?

did you taste all of the sorrow you in sighted in my eyes?
were you happy with your effort, or regret you never tried?
did you lingere, did you listen? did you scream and did you die?

did you bleed and did you blister?
did you break and did you bite?
did you buy all of that bullshit that you fed youself last night?

did you feel it? did you fake?
did you love me? did you lie?
are you aware that we are perfect, me for you and you for i?

are you cool with haveing nothing when you know that it was right?
are you broken? are you battered? are you better? am i right?

are you nothing? are you hating every word and every lie?
are you truthful? are you angry? are you walls and armor high?

is this better? are you safe now?
are you numb? are you on fire?
you are a liar! you're disgusting!
still want me to teach you how to fight?

i am searching for insperation
to help guide me through this confusion,
dissilusion and perpetual movement.



for obvious reasons i chose not to post this at the time being, but i feel that it is ok now.
and this is most definetly not how i feel now.

but i still really like it all the same.

I'm Not Pissed, I Promise.

rarely do i insist
but this is extraordinarly important to me.
rarely do i lie,
well i do it all the time.
pathologicaly inside
i dont care if you find out.
because you're only here
for one reason.
its to please me.

because i dont care about the conseqeunces
im reckless inside, you're beautiful. intentions of mine are shallow
i hope this means a lot.

and can you close your eyes
i can see it when i dive
into your life
am i pretty when i pry?
because i might look
just a little like im trying
but its just a face
because i dont want you to feel me.

you're a tool to my skin
and i know i never win.
well its worth my shot
if you move i'll take it off
and can you handle me?
cause i dont plan on going slow.

because i dont care about the conseqeunces
im reckless inside, you're beautiful. intentions of mine are shallow
i hope this means a lot to you
because to me you're just a fluke.
i am in some need of person i can use.
its alright to breath. i wont hide a thing from you.
is i seem to cling then im lying just to prove
i can get anything. i can take it all from you.
if its my mind you need, find another one to use.
dont think im acting clean. if you let me i'll abuse you.
and all i want is to abuse you.

i hope this means a lot to you
because to me you're just a fluke.
i am in some need of person i can use.

wont you be the person i can use...

this will pass in time, but for now im alright
with wanting you for me. with fucking up tonight.
because i dont have to be right.
im pathetic and its fine by me..
for the reasons that i try. i am letting go tonight.

Yvonne

Start this off with something sweet
God did right with your beauty

All these things that we have done
All the pain, the want, and thoughts.

Lying in the hole you dug.
With a smile i look up.

Thinking what you thought of me
I played your game and I am pleased.

Falling, faking fading fast.
Hold my hand 'cause this won't last.

Is this all your mastery?
Damn you're right and I beleive

You are right in all you do.
I hate the part where you won't lose.

All the same I know you tried.
I confessed i closed my eyes

To all the clues you left behind.
I lost, but I never tried.

Falling, faking, fading fast.
Hold my hand 'cause I can't stand.

You were hurt and I was wrong.
You did everything you could.

I started as a way to learn.
In my arms you fell in love.

I started as a man to hurt.
You thought that i did not deserve

All the pain you tried to deal.
Thought I was clean and beautiful.

Now I know you told the truth.
Now I know that I was used.

Falling, faking, fading fast.
Hold my hand 'cause I move fast.

You have a plan and that is all.
Think of all the words you spoke.

I was taking it away.
Left vulnerable you wouldn't be.

I respect the choice you made.
I wasn't worth the things you hate.

All the things we could've been.
All the things you couldn't risk.

I was angry, I couldn't think.
Remember thats what you told me.

All weekend you said you thought.
I beleive in what you've done.

I was showed the mercey of
The only one that felt my love.

I was cofused about the truth.
All you said, you never lied.

And is this what you thought of me?
Damn you're right and I concede.

Falling, faking fading fast.
Hold my hand and let this pass.

All the things we could've been.
All the thigns you couldn't risk.

Don't you worry about a thing.
Its been twelve days and I'm ok.

Know that now I'm capable
Of sharing everything with you.

Ending this with something sweet.
This was beautiful to me.

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever really been loved
By the hand that's touched me, well I feel like something gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you
Around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good
(chorus)
I wanna push you around, I will, I will
I wanna push you down, I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted(2x)
I will

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is
Gonna hurt ya
And I don't why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine cuz it's a little bit dirty well

Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged, and you
You don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all
(chorus)
Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so
Crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby(2x)
(chorus)

Matchbox 20- Push

Itch

Thinking.
Thinking.
Going in circles.

Man.. I am always so tired.
Hold me?

Thinking.
Itching.
I can't get it out of the back of my head.

I've had this head ache for a few years now.

Running the track again.

I just woke up.
For the third time today.
Still tired.

Itching. Thinking.

Again.

dude....

Yeah?...

Just One Of My Names

Let them come.
The temptations. Assperations of a better life and how to make it easier.
Let them come.

I will not run.
Like the virgin who won't allow herself to be touched for fear that she might turn into a slut.
Let them come.

I will not hide.
I will not pretend nor put up a facade. I will not remove the bits of information so that it looks how I want.
Let them come.

I will not fight.
I will stand here open, arms behind my back, handcuffed from any protection they could provide.
Let them come.

I will not stand here.
Waiting for my freinds to die. I do not need to be justified.
Let them come.

I will step aside.
Pointing my finger and rallying my pride.
Just so I can throw it all away and jump in to the stampeed as soon as it really gets bad.
Let them come.

I am looking forward to it.

Something I Will Forget

Perminit stains on the left side of my face.
People get angry when you turn the other cheek.
Learning restrain in like pulling your hair out.

And by pulling I mean slapping.
And by your hair out, I mean the right side of your face.

A Spoon Full Of Resentment Helps The Medicine Go Down

Why should I care if the caged bird sings?
Why should it matter if my heart doesn't bleed?
Why do you hate me for what I beleive?
When your life meets corruption you will know what I mean.

Why should it matter if she can't close her eyes?
Why should I stagger when a grown man cries?
Why should I falter when you stare in my eyes?
When you finally meet the Devil you will understand my plight.

How can I judge you when you're asking to die?
Why is it fickle if you feel like a child?
When is it ok to hate for awhile?
To tell the world to listen because you have been stained by its trials.

When is there sollice for the young man wise?
Why can't he fall away and forget his own lies?
Is there a reason for this whole lifes struggle?
Or am I the only one who thinks it all to shallow?

When will the time come that i am finally right?
When will the payoff reward with tranquility at night?
Is there a reason for my whole lifes struggle?
Or am I the only one that is having all these troubles?

Eclipse

Resentment
Confusion
Anger
Acceptance
Wondering
Hoping
Waiting for the closet.
Smiling
Regreting
Remebering the spot
Admiring
Smiling
Holding on
Admiring
Hating
Letting go
Resentment.....