What I'll Never Be

I watch him with more than the eyes
Sensitivity feels his body comply
A touch isn't required for me to know
That what he wants, he dare not show.
But they're not touches meant for me
Although I'd love to be, willingly.

Realizing it's more than perhaps my religion
My personality isn't reigning through the permanent vision
No matter how shallow you refuse to be
You're from the race of men, and this is me.
So I put on a smile that is so bright
It makes you believe I'm happy, alright.

And I go back to what I'm so accustomed to...
Matchmaking for the special girl and you.

The only satisfaction gotten out of a relationship you're not in...

i love sonnets

i taste her with more than my lips
her soul is justified and thoughtfull i want it
touch you and require a kiss with a blow
ask me what i want, i'll let ya know
cling to the girl, like death to a rose
forgetfull and beautifil, daisy's alone

cut the throat, make it quick, do it with persistence
make me feel, make me screem, the squints are not resistence
my love is still, her eyes turned down
don't frett, my touch is not for perocupied women
so smile bright, to match my armor
tell me the truth, then why would you bother

i prick, i sting, i try to make beleive
but i'll bend, i'll breack. just ask me

To ask is to go out on the unsteady limb.
Call me a coward, I'll stick with a hopeful whim.
I'll stay in the steady, safe from the answers.
Where I won't be left with numbness, spreading like cancer.
The answer is already there, I don't need confirmation,
So I'll keep my smile as my firm foundation.

stone masons got nothin' compared to me
i'll huff and i'll puff, then we'll see who's sturdy
im harmless, im petite, im brutish and mean
i love those i love, and what i hate i tend to crush
im the drugs, fell good stuff, if you know what i mean
everythings good in moderation. and im the fuckin' referee.

damn, both of you are talented. i couldnt come up with this stuff even if my life depended on it

she is at least four times better than me.

Careful. These comments are ruining my gloominess. ^_^

Harmless and petite, you might be physically,
But everyone's a mental threat to humanity.
So I'll quit your presence
And leave you miserable
Because anything is safer
Than me left vulnerable.

Trust I have in no one,
With the damage that's been done,
So please give up, just leave me be,
You'll never know, because you can not see.

x-ray glasses, batman belts, i alerady know
my mind is so quick, figured it out before you did
i'm vengfull, im wicked
and god is my cousin
if anyone hurts you
i wont hesitae to crush them

i fall in love so fast
a perfectly set up romance
giving up isn't in my nature, apperently you can't see
i know what your doing, and before we're done you'll be in love with me

I'm standing behind the sideline,
Not daring to show what's in this mind.
You think you know, I'll match that bet,
But I'm not revealing, at least not yet.
So now it's your move, which play will you make,
I'll sit here and stay, pray, hope, and wait.

I'm not one to reveal, so even if you know,
I will not show, I move far too slow.
Believe what you want as long as you're happy,
This banter won't last long, I feel quite crappy. ^_^

try as i do. your skizims crack mine and doom
sets in with my jersey, numbered with an arrow
pointing right at you. if your cane then im able.
if your rubber im glue. bounce off who ever he was, stick to me i'll prove
shore i love her, with all my heart. but im used to dissapointment
and i enjoy stopping yours

you dont have to reveal, i'll rip it off you myself.
i got hidden cameras baby, they're on your top shelf
call it faith, you have it?
smile darling, its working like magic

I was merely venting,
Forgive my light hinting,
It's only a crush, nothing more.

I'm quite content with being a friend.
That's always how it is in the end.

sorry sweety. she wont be.
thats all there is to it.
i will still have my patience. for a year or two.
but she wont be mine, im doomed.

With a conscience so light, you surprise me.
Patience and contentment is your only key.
With your outlook now, you are truly doomed,
But not if you just step out of the gloom - Just keep fightng.
You'll get her soon.

you win. im dry. damn your good.