Rationalization of my perception

i m still at the point of my life of finding the niche of
my perception
though i formulate standpoints of my perception the point is i
formulate different standpoints, which contridict themselves
but do they do? ultimately how do i know on what grounds i can rationalize
which beliefs are wrong and which are right.

but my perception of things is not that i see but how i see correct?
so seeing things is correct right? all i m doin is justifying them
in my mind's eye. but while doing this can any self-justified perception be correct?
bcz what i see is there but do i have the power to perceive it in my own
way?

if i m allowed to make assumptions in my own mind then what is one to say if i want to change what is there in front of me and make it how i see it? is it wrong to change something that is univerally recognized
by others.
whose to say or what can say, i can and when i do change it on my own,
what basis of checks and balances keep my beliefs from changing a universal
perspective to my own.

and what of others perceptions in relation to my own? what allows us
the basis to make assumptions against each others and within ourselves?
what keeps our minds of infinite skepticism from doin what we see
to hold true in our minds. this goes for morales, beliefs, but most importantly physical aspects of the universe.

and Knowledge: Knowledge seems to be crucially involved matters
that go beyond true known perception plus purely "internal" issues; there
are "external" matters beyond the truth of the perception in question
that matter to whether a perception is a piece of knowledge.
with that on the back of the race horse which is u, how does that
make u feel? to me it destroys what i have perceived and thought to be real
but i believe this statement to be true, and yet i keep contridicting
myself.... WHY?!?!?!? how can knowledge be generalized amongst the masses
if everyone will contridict each other, we can TRULY only agree to
disagree, some medians can be placed but what of it? that just defeats
the purpose of perception if we hold it in to ourselves does it not?
or does liberate us to seeing that even if we see everything by ourselves then significance is what we make it. to me Knowledge is dead.
the mind is the only thing i can have to my own and perceive
the universe. read this and think respond on how it makes u feel b4 u
criticizeplz. empathisize then criticize. do not judge! justify!

no one has anything to say to this?
i m dissapointed

Im not sure I understand what your trying to express.