Insanity Check?

Okay, let me start of with stating that I DO know that homicidal/suicidal thoughts are normal.. But how far can it go before it turns to insane?

Here is my worry: Lately and more offen still, I have been having sudden urges to go out to a overly crowded store and just slit the wrist of an innocent and watch the blood drip and run down their fingers.. I offen scare myself when this thought fritters into my mind. It just comes out of no where. Yes, mainly when I am depressed, and I do have history of self-mutilation. But this image and thought has scared me more than anything I've ever thought in this state. It makes me feel like I am losing my grip on sanity.

Is it a phase? Is it just me? Or is there something mentally wrong with me??

hey Spewie,

first of all let me tell you that i understand where you are coming from.

also, let me tell you that you are not insane.

It is good that you are aware of, and questioning you thoughts. And i feel that it is even better that they scare you. If you were not concerned by these thoughts, and comefortable with them, then i would question your sanity, but the truth is the opposite, you are worried by these thoughts, and sharing them with others, and asking advice, and this is all good.

Talk to someone you trust, a teacher, a parent, a friend (or continue to talk to us, keep us posted and continue to share)

I think everone has thoughts that are distructive and which scare them. the important thing is that these are just thoughts and not actions, and as long as that is how they remain things are in your control.

keep your head up,
i'm here if you need me,
I try to stop in when i can.

Peace

yea the fact that these thoughts do concern you is a good indication of you still being on the "healthy" side. another thing to look out for is if the thoughts are controllable or not. once it pops in to your head are you able to recongnize it and push it away, or does the thought remain whether you want it to or not... if you arent able to control it, then you have a problem. strange things pop in to my head all the time, no idea where some of it even comes from, but if i dont like it i can get rid of it pretty quick.

,all it means is that you have to talk to real people face to face more, then those thoughts will vanish.