I figuared out my disease

"Generalized anxiety disorder is a relatively common anxiety problem, affecting 3-4% of the population, that turns daily life into a state of worry, anxiety, and fear. Excessive thinking and dwelling on the "what ifs" characterizes this anxiety disorder. As a result, the person feels there's no way out of the vicious cycle of anxiety and worry, and then becomes depressed about life and the state of anxiety they find themselves in."

-www.anxietynetwork.com/gawhat.html#top

No matter how many times a hot woman walks by me it seems they don't even glance at me and pretend I dont exist or purposly try to avoid eye contact with me, and when they do make it I am too much of a coward to say anything, especially with other people around. And no matter how good I look or I feel I can never say anything and just keep walking. I feel like a coward, and later feel hateful toward myself and the world aorund me. This also translates into other aspects of my life, like I cant train or hit punching bags cause I get depressed thinking about my life, and realize no matter how tough or strong ill be ill still be a coward. This isnt just with women, I have a hard time being mean to people or telling people off in the real world without feeling extremly guilty or just not doing it. I also have a hard time setting boundaries to prevent people from walking all over me.

I often leave this cycle and am in a happy place in my life but than I don't do something I want to do, sort of a personal test. Like I mentioned I tried telling myself to go approach a woman and everytime I backed out just before I did it, than I fell back into this anxiety. Ive had previous experience like this with people being rude to me and me not reacting rudely back or with agression, this I began ton consider msyelf weak and again fell back into this anxiety.